The analogy didn't work so well when Kengo was still intent on viewing himself negatively. It was rare that he allowed himself to fall into these moods, primarily only when he was stressed or having a hard time with something else. Arriving on Omega had led to a host of negative emotions, which he had promptly buried and told himself that he would deal with at a later time. Unfortunately, more and more negative things happening since his arrival meant more and more time that he went without dealing with anything. The outpouring of emotion had been something he'd needed, though he had hoped it would be something like the anger outburst he'd had just after arriving. Having someone seeing him act like this was ...
Kengo had never wanted to make mistakes in the first place, but he knew that was something he couldn't say easily. It was stupid to think he could go through life without messing up something. Even with the Fourze system, there had been too many times his instincts on a Switch had failed, only for Gentarou to figure out the best use for it. He always thought he knew best, only to have someone else prove him wrong. ... in a way, it was nice. At times.
"I don't think I could have learned that lesson under worse circumstances." Really, it felt as though there was no way to recover from Gentarou's death, the loss of the Fourze system, the potential death of all of his friends, and being ripped away from his home only to survive in a place like this. "It feels like my entire life has been reset. I have nothing here of the person I was before I came." The Kaban was with him, as were the Switches, but even if the Fourze system had come with him, he would have been unable to use it.
Kengo had noticed the other's missing eye, of course, but figured it was likely a touchy subject that he shouldn't bother asking about. If the man wanted to elaborate, he would.
"Do you think we're here for a reason? Maybe we really are meant to start over..."
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Kengo had never wanted to make mistakes in the first place, but he knew that was something he couldn't say easily. It was stupid to think he could go through life without messing up something. Even with the Fourze system, there had been too many times his instincts on a Switch had failed, only for Gentarou to figure out the best use for it. He always thought he knew best, only to have someone else prove him wrong. ... in a way, it was nice. At times.
"I don't think I could have learned that lesson under worse circumstances." Really, it felt as though there was no way to recover from Gentarou's death, the loss of the Fourze system, the potential death of all of his friends, and being ripped away from his home only to survive in a place like this. "It feels like my entire life has been reset. I have nothing here of the person I was before I came." The Kaban was with him, as were the Switches, but even if the Fourze system had come with him, he would have been unable to use it.
Kengo had noticed the other's missing eye, of course, but figured it was likely a touchy subject that he shouldn't bother asking about. If the man wanted to elaborate, he would.
"Do you think we're here for a reason? Maybe we really are meant to start over..."