Wash doesn't answer for a moment, busying himself instead with his drink. The alcohol burns his throat, but he'd rather take that over thinking, right this second. Compartmentalization is something he's been good at for a long time, thanks to Epsilon, but now that he's actually letting the memories out it's difficult to process them.

"I know," he says finally. "I just-- I didn't want to think it was real. That I was... wrong."